So my last post made me laugh! I always have good intentions but finding the time (and lets not lie) the motivation to write is hard. It’s one of those things that I’m like “god damn I wish I could do that” and a little voice in my head says “well practise makes perfect” and then for that moment I’m all pumped up to write every day. But in reality it doesn’t happen. So this time no promises, just a little update!
I can’t believe its June already! Where does the time go?? So whats new?
Well, I’ve got a boyfriend and its got to the point where I feel that I should actually call him my boyfriend. And it’s going really well. I mean I know I don’t have much experience in happy healthy relationships, but I think that maybe, this is one. We don’t really fight. Sometimes we have disagreements but they are minimal. I’m working on some BAD habits, like freezing him out and refusing to engage with him when I’m mad at him. This is definitely one picked up from old relationships, and its just my immediate reaction when someone hurts me (and I’m easily hurt by those who I’m close to.) But with him it rarely ends in a great row. Instead he gently tries to talk to me, creates small talk and eventually when I realise he isn’t going to bite I realise we’d be having a nicer time if I either said something or let it go. And getting upset when we want different things (generally that he needs space) I’m trying to respect his wishes and if they upset me instead focus on the fact they are what HE needs.
I’m also riding horses, and I actually kind of feel, like I could maybe say that I can ride a horse. Almost. I see the others trusting me more, and I’m riding a wider variety of the horses. The other day I did a publicity photo shoot for an event we were going to, on a horse sidesaddle!
Jubal is rowing by the second. He is a proper little person now, he runs and climbs everywhere and says hiiiiiiiiiiii. Although “hi” is pretty much all he says we can still have conversations. They quite often go like this:
Jubal: Grunt! *Points at something he wants but isn’t allowed – batteries, glasses, rolls of thread etc etc*
Me: No, not that we’re going to go outside!
Jubal: Grunt!! *Continues to point*
Jubal: *Stops pointing but looks at me*
Jubal: *Runs and gets shoes brings them to me to put on*
You can get the jist.
Oh and yes Anastasia came to stay recently! It was good to see her, she taught me some super cool silks stuff that I am excited to try!!